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Not to say that being 40 is horrible but I am having a rough time with this upcoming birthday.  Maybe it’s because I’m single and live the lifestyle of someone in their early 30’s. My apartment is falling down around me and I see no light at the end of the tunnel some days.  Is this it?  I can’t quite put my finger on it exactly but I’m going through the emotional as well as the physical changes all at once and that’s tough and I usually do not get stressed over things so easily, or at all come to think of it.  Why is youth so important in this society? Why is being 40 scaring the H-E double hockey sticks out of me? Is it the fact that now I have (and had for quite some time)  real adult responsibilities and can’t just pick up and pursue whatever my heart desires like when I was still living with my parents in my early 20’s?  Or can I work hard and really still do whatever I want in this life as long as I am willing to sacrifice other things to do so?  So several people have told me yes, that is the case.  It IS possible.  Am I just lazy and blaming my age for where I am in life? That sounds like a cop out.  Just having a conversation in my head that is traveling to the keyboard. Writing is so therapeutic.

There are tons of super-celebs that still look fantastic despite being well past that 40 year old mark, but most of us (myself included) don’t share the same fortune as these ladies.  Perhaps if I was paid millions to look good I’d have more of an incentive.  But then again it seems silly to put so much mental energy into something I have so little control over. Chronological aging is one of those things that just is.

First I would like to say I am very thankful that I am healthy and have been given the opportunity to be on this wonderful planet Earth (side note: If you haven’t seen any of it yet, watch the documentary series Planet Earth. It’s amazing and it’s on the Discovery Channel all the time) for 40 years and have experienced many great things in life and very thankfully not a lot of bad things like health problems, family deaths, trauma, etc. I am also very happy and thankful to look and feel younger than 40 most days, compared to people I know and observe on a regular basis.  I am not being a whiny, complaining pain in the butt. I just want to share and express my feelings and fears on the topic and I know many of you are going through the same thing. Maybe it’s the 30th or the 50th or the 60th birthday coming up for you and you can’t quite deal with it either.  Recently I was having a nice discussion with a customer who was starting to freak out because she was going to be 25. As much as I wanted to say “are you kidding” I empathized with her because I am going through the exact same thing.  It also made me very happy she was being pro-active in her skin care and wanted to start focusing on anti-aging now, before it’s too late. Smart young lady.

From my previous blogs we already know that despite the fact that I work at the best skin care salon and skin care brand in the whole wide world, I don’t have great skin. 99 percent because I do the damage to myself along with some unhealthy, though very common and normal lifestyle choices that I refuse to change at this point in time (come on, I have to live!) . On top of the usual skin annoyances I am getting a very regular, monthly, giant cyst-lump-pimple things that of course I will not leave alone. Now I am collecting the after effects in the form of hyperpigmentation marks and there is one for every month since July. Double Wear concealer to the rescue! Add that to the sagging skin and minor creasing, and I am starting to look old. Just great.   Note to self: Get more Cellufirm Drops.

Working in a salon requires all day standing. Even when I was working in the office over the years it was a lot of up and down and running back and forth and never really relaxing while doing my work.  I could work a whole shift and never feel tired or achy for one minute.  Nope. That’s just not the way it is anymore.  Aching back and fatigue sets in so much more quickly now. Maybe that’s the work shoes I bought at Target for $15.99 or maybe that’s my age showing its face. Not sure yet.   I start looking at women in their 20’s and getting so jealous, which isn’t really my nature. I have to start changing my perception of this whole 40 thing and start doing more positive things for my mind and body so I can continue being awesome regardless of what my chronological age is.  I should probably start taking my own advice and get more green leafy veggies in my diet and stop eating/drinking all those things that are aging me even faster!

40 is now a reality. I want to embrace it not fear it. That would be the healthy thing to do. I have 4 months to figure that out.

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